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Elendurwen

Published: Sep 5, 2015

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Predisposed
To this mind's self-torture
My prerequisite
For a mental suicide

Preconditioned
For a slow deconstitution
My self-interaction
So ready to short-circuit

I'm prepared
My mind has been aligned
My bones can feel it
My hollow eyes shut down

The energy
The relentless shadows scream
The remote parts of mine
Turn me inside out

I offer myself
For a freedom perverted
To simply be complete
To simply cease to exist

Predisposed
To psychic mutilation
In blissful damnation
I watch myself disappear

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MaggotsX

Sep 6, 2015

Dug this one. The knowing act of losing yourself in emotional/mental compromise cuts deeply, but is sometimes unavoidable. Poetry choice-wise, I enjoyed the alliteration & repetition. Favorites: I think the 3rd & closing stanzas. The mispronunciation of "cease" worked for visual alliteration, but would probably be just as effective with correct spelling when read. Not sure if you were implying the literal meaning of "seize" for alternative effect. Enjoyed this one very much.

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